Day one!

Well, here we are at the end of day one. The first step has been taken. Whew!
I did well today. I stayed within my guide lines of 1400 calories. I got out of my chair alot more today and will really exercise when I get home tonight.
I sent out the email invitation at work, which was even more difficult than I had anticipated. I wrote the email and mentioned a couple of times in it that I wanted to be more healthy and eat more healthy - but instead of writing healthy, I wrote "health"... twice! I read that email at least 4 times before I hit the "send" button and never noticed the type-o until later. Could it have been because I was distracted by the sound of my heart beating in my ears and the feeling of sheer terror?! Maybe. You know, inviting people to witness your personal struglle is a little like going into labor. Once you've hit the "send" button, there is no backing out! That can be terrifying! Maybe that's why I have decided to do this. It's hard to back out of something that everyone is watching. This would bring me to the first topic I have decided to address: The fear of reaching my goal. Yes... I said fear. It's not the losing weight that is so scary, but the thought of one more failed attempt. I have been on so many weight loss diets, gimmics and supplements that I have lost count. Obviously, none of them have worked permanently. I have decided that the only thing that will work permanently is to permanently change my "food life". I have always known this, but thought I could cheat by getting there (to my goal) quickly THEN start the life change. Again... it obviously hasn't worked. There is more to the old addage, "The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step"! See, it's not just the small step that gets you started on the path, but it's also (and maybe more so) the fact that that huge thousand mile journey HAS to be taken in small steps. Hmmmm... maybe a better analogy would be, "How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time!"
The real fear isn't so much in failing to reach my goal, but more so failing AFTER I reach my goal. That is a crushing defeat! But... we wont concentrate on that! Positive thinking - that's what this is going to be about!
So - day one is under our belts (as are alot of donuts and cheese burgers). We CAN do this!! You know - I just might end up liking elephant!
Alice =-)